Simply Lilacs

The tribulations and successes of a single mother of two

My Heart is Heavy

My heart is very heavy tonight as I write this.  My hometown and current town, has lost two very good people from the same family in a tragic oilfield accident.  What makes things worse, is they were father and son in law.  I cannot begin to fathom what this family must be going through and I can only imagine the pain that April must feel finding both her father and her husband dead at the same time.  I truly hope that she didn’t have any of her children with her at the time of finding them.  That would be so sad.  This is such a nice family who would do anything to help a person in need.

We were first hearing about the accident around 8:30 PM last night.  My mom received a text from a friend that said there was a report of a man who fell into a well by Claflin.  I immediately started praying that it wasn’t anyone we knew.  My hometown is very small and almost everyone knows everybody else.  At 10:30 last night she texted me a forward from my aunt saying that it was Curtis and Kebby.  My heart sank.  They were such good people and Kebby and I are the same age.  Curtis went to school with my father.

I also learned this morning that a good friend’s daughter was killed in a car accident in Oklahoma City this weekend as well.  She was just a few days shy of her 18th birthday and had a little girl of her own.  This makes me sad.  I know my friend is hurting and there’s not much you can say or do at a time like this.  Its his child.  Nothing takes the pain away of losing a child but time.

There was also a drowning over the weekend at Wilson Lake.  The man who died was from Hoisington which is just down the road from Claflin.  I knew this man as well.

I”m still in shock by all this news actually.  I know these people.  How and Why did this happen??  Why is God taking them at such young ages?  I know he only takes us when its our time,  but now?  They all had so much life left to live.  I just don’t understand God’s thinking sometimes.  But he only brings us through what we can handle.

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Being Unemployed Sucks

I hate it but I love it.  I like not having to get up at the butt crack of dawn to get ready, but at the same time, I hate having to look for a new job.  I was laid off a week ago.  I’ve already applied for unemployment.  Haven’t heard anything back yet though.  I haven’t found a job either.

I hope it doesn’t take long to find  one either.  Between bills to pay and rent  – its going to be hard.  All well, whatever God brings me to, he will pull me through I believe.

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Its Been Awhile

I know I’ve been gone from the blog world for a couple weeks.  I had two back to back ear infections and they wiped my butt out.  I’m finally feeling like I’m back to the land of the living.

Harvest is also in full swing, after a bit of a rocky start.   Both combines overheated within the first two hours and the semi blew a tire going to the elevator on the first run.  Both were able to be fixed easily at least.  However, its forecasted to have rain tonight, which isn’t surprising since we just started cutting.   It never fails.

I should be back on here this week to update you on the goings on in my life.  I hope.


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Father’s Day

Yes I am a day late – but HAPPY FATHER’S DAY  to all the dad’s out there and to the mom’s who take care of it all as well.  Also, a big shout out to the soon to be dad’s as well.

I decided to give my daddy a break this year.  Instead of going out to see him, I let him have the day to himself.  I called him to wish him a good day and asked what he was doing.  He just wanted to rest and watch all the TV he could.  He wasn’t upset by my not driving to the farm, he was actually happy.

I love my daddy very very much.  He’s a wonderful man and I couldn’t ask for a better father.  He’s always there when I need him and takes his grandkids on the tractor when they ask.

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More Fun Arises

While I was at work yesterday (Wed), the kids spent time with their Nana, Papa and Aunt L (the live in Nanny for the summer as needed).  Bubba baled hay with his Papa, Cal Mal played with Aunt L and Nana while he was gone.  They wouldn’t take naps, although I heard Bubba said “I’ll do my best and try” LOL  The things kids say.  After that failed attempt, they went bullfrog hunting again.  Nana fell in the pond and while Aunt L and Cal Mal laughed, Bubba said “don’t touch me Nana I don’t like mudd” another one of my kids’ favorite sayings.  LOL

On the way back to town for Cal Mal’s TBall game, they stopped to go see my great grandpa (the one with cancer) to say hello.  He’s feeling a little better but the sores in his mouth from Radiation and Chemo still have him talking less and less.  They dropped Papa’s truck off at my other grandparents as he was going to be baling hay after the game, and saw a turkey.  Nana drove her Lexus through the newly planted milo field chasing it.  I was told the kids were having a hay day with that as well.

We went to Cal Mal’s  TBall game.  Although she did good, she just wasn’t as into this time as Monday nights game.  She had a scab on her forehead she was more worried about.  At one point she came up to me and I grabbed onto it as it was starting to come off, she moved her head so that I wouldn’t pull it off, little did she know that it come off anyway.  Oops.

We then all went back to my house and had spaghetti for dinner.  It was pretty good I must say!

This morning though I went and had my blood work done and blood pressure rechecked.  Lab work was easy.  However, it does look like I’m going to be put on medication for my blood pressure.  I’m not excited but I knew it was coming.  Ugh.  All well, its a fact of life and with the family history of it, pretty unavoidable.  I go back in the morning to talk to my doctor as he was out today, to discuss for sure what he wants to do and have it re-checked again.


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The Never Ending Earache and the Doctor Visit

I finally made a doctor appointment for my ear as it just doesn’t seem to want to go away with the medicine I have been using and the alcohol/vinegar solution isn’t working either.  He decided to put me on an antibiotic for the next 2 weeks.  Ugh, I hate trying to remember to take medicine – I suck at it LOL.

When I got to the office, they took my blood pressure.  It was 119/100.  When I took it last Saturday night it was 100/89 and Sunday it was 119/96.  My family was worried about me at that point as high blood pressure runs on both my parents sides of the family.  I had been feeling rather tired and fatigued a lot lately, as well as getting more migraines, so they wanted the doctor to check my thyroid also, as my dad has thyroid issues too.

So, lucky me, tomorrow morning first thing, I get to take a full CBC count and have a lipid panel ran.  Then I get to go back to my doctor to get my blood pressure checked again.  If its high again, he’s putting me on blood pressure pills to see if that helps regulate all my issues I’ve been having.  I go back in a month then to see if the medicine helps and to recheck my ear.

I’m so not excited.  I’m only 29.  What 29 year old gets high blood pressure?  I’m sure its common but this was something I was so not prepared for.  Yes, I am a little overweight and I know that, that does not help matters any.  I have been trying to watch what I eat/drink and exercise more here in the last few months anyways.  I don’t even eat salt and pepper on my food ever.  I always knew I’d end up getting put on medication for it, I just wasn’t prepared for it to be so soon…….

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Movies, A Birthday Party and Animal Adventures

Friday nights when I have the kids are always movie nights.  I let them each pick a movie and I get to pick one as well and we stay up late watching them.  We call in pizza and just veg out in front of the tv.  This past Friday was Bolt, the Dragon movie and Finding Nemo.

Saturday we slept in as it was well past 11 PM before the kids went to sleep and past midnight before I fell asleep as well.  We had lunch and picked up the house some as we weren’t going to be home the rest of the weekend.  Then around 2 PM we left the house and went and got Bubba’s birthday cake from the store.  We celebrated his 4th birthday with my family as he will be at his dad on Father’s Day/his birthday this year.  He decided to have an Angry Birds theme this year and his cake was just adorable.  He was too excited and his party wasn’t until later that evening.  It was torture on the poor boy.

We went to church and then all came back to my parent’s house a/k/a the farm.  We had burgers and all the fixings to go with.  He was ready to open his gifts then but not everyone was finished eating, so his uncle A took him outside for a 4 wheeler ride.  He was excited.   By the time they were done, I had cleaned up the kitchen some and summoned him back inside for presents.  He was in hog heaven with the puzzles and games he got, as well as his new John Deere Combine his uncle A and aunt B got him.  He also received some new clothes and a bug/fishing net.  He loved the net so much that we had to go frog hunting  then.  The kids caught over 50 tiny bullfrogs just coming out of the tadpole stage.  My cousin and her friend each caught a toad.  I now am the owner of 6 bullfrogs, 3 for each of the kids.  Lucky me.  But I can’t complain, they had so much fun looking for them and we love going out to the pond to find them.  We even saw a snake.  We didn’t get to bed again until after midnight by the time I got the kids in the shower and everyone left.

Luckily this morning (Sunday) we got to sleep in again since we went to church last night.  My mom made yummy biscuits and gravy with hash browns for breakfast.  Its been a while since I’ve been at the house on a Sunday for her to make that.  I missed it.  I then made the kids go downstairs to play and I fell asleep.  My ear is still bugging me and I didn’t sleep very good last night again.  Its getting old.  Anyways, after I woke up my parents decided to take the kids and I on an Ag Tour.  We went and saw miniature horses, racing dogs and pigs.  We were gone for almost 2 hours and the kids LOVED it!! When we got back to the farm, we headed over to my brother’s house (uncle A and aunt B) so the kids could see the rabbit and 2 ferrets they are watching until tomorrow and so that Bubba could get the rest of his birthday gift from me.  He loved his barn and getting all his farm animals and people made sense then to him.  We then headed home as aunt B was sleeping and I didn’t want to wake her.

We got home and the kids were wiped out, as was I.  The kids got out some of his new toys and played while I found some cartoons.  We then had supper quick and I got them ready to head to their dads for his week with them.  Although it was a good week with them, I must say it was busy and I could use a nice break for this week.  I will get to see them on Wednesday for my night with them so it won’t be so bad.  We have T Ball and gymnastics all week with Cal Mal so I’ll see them those days as well.

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Recurring Dreams

Last night I had one of my five recurring dreams.  I don’t know what the deal is but every few months I have one of these dreams.

I”m back in Kindergarten and getting on the school bus.  I look up to the sky and there is a flying bear coming to get me.  I run back to the house and tell my mom.  She grabs a white bed sheet and throws it on me and escorts me back out to the bus.  As long as the sheet is on me, he can’t get to me.  I ride to school with the sheet covering me as he is following us.

I’m dropped off at school and walk in with the sheet covering me.  As soon as I get into the classroom I take it off.  But that is too soon as I decide I need to use the bathroom.  The bear flies through the window and attacks me.

This is the point that I always wake up at.  I don’t understand the meaning of it.  But then again, I’ve never really tried to analyze it.  Its just a screwed up dream I have.

Does anyone else have any recurring and/or screwed up dreams?


The Never Ending Earache

Saturday I woke up and my ear was bothering me a bit.  Luckily I still had some medicine from back in March when I had my last ear infection.  I put the drops in through out the day and it seemed to get better.  Sunday I put the drops in some as well.  I thought I was feeling good enough on Monday as it wasn’t that bad of an earache.  Tuesday my ear didn’t even hurt.  However, I woke up this morning thinking I was going to fall over.  I couldn’t balance right.  My ear hurt so bad it wasn’t even funny.  I took a shower, put my drops in again and got myself dressed then got the kids up and ready for the day as well.

I made it at work until 10:30 this morning.  I couldn’t focus any longer.  I came home, put more drops in my ears (I have both the infection stopping and benzocaine drops) and took a tramadol for the pain and went to bed.  I slept for 3 hours which and it was the first time I slept soundly for a while now.  As I write this, it still hurts.  However, its getting better and I think I’ll be able to make the whole day at work tomorrow.  At least I hope so.

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School’s Out for the Summer

School is out for the summer finally.  I must say, I was worried when I found out my daughter didn’t have her saved spot at our local after school program for the summer.  I take that back, I wasn’t worried; I was furious.  I knew I had put her name down and the director and I had talked about it many times.  I very well could have not wrote her name down, but I can’t blame anyone but me for that mistake.

So, that led me to have to find a babysitter for the the summer until she can get into the program.   Luckily, my sister who is 19 has nothing going on this summer at all.  She’s now my live in Nanny.  I admit, my daughter is having a blast with her aunt.  Its good for them to spend some time together.  My sister was so busy last summer and this past few  months with studying for her cosmetology boards (which she still has to take) that the kids haven’t had much of a chance to spend time with her.

I will also say, that I was worried about her coming to live with me for the week.  Her and I don’t always see eye to eye.  Partly because there is a 9 year difference in our ages.  We can’t even cook in the same kitchen as each other because we bicker too much.  But so far so good.

My son however, is a little disappointed.  The poor kid does’t want to go to daycare but he has too as I’ve already paid for the month of June for him.  He’d rather stay with his aunt as well.

I’m just glad that they can all get along and that this is working out for me.  Saves me from having to pay out the butt for someone else to watch her.

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